It's the last day of February. Sometimes I feel that 24 hours a day is not enough, it might be just nice for me to study and surf social networks randomly. I couldn't remember how long I didn't watch a drama or a movie, I don't know what is the storyline about even if I have extra time to watch some episodes, I don't think I have more than 1 hour time in watching TV program most of the time. I am not sad because of this, as I am not drama type and I rather spend the time to have a tight sleep, I just feel that I am practicing a nerdy lifestyle.


I was chatting with Yuehan another day, I was complaining about others (I don't usually do so, but when I did, you can imagine how serious the matter is) as I don't know why people like them, going to be 19 soon, get mad because of little things, sometimes I think that they are just like a kid, a kindergarten kid. Then, he told me that I am serious in everything, I have planned what I need to do and I will try my best to make everything happens according to my plan + I have fully utilized my time, I have 3 days break for every week but I don't really have a rest day, I have things to do. He said that it is good to spend your time wisely but sometimes, have a more relaxing life will make me happier, maybe less complains; have a broader perspectives in looking things as I have time to think from other angels; able to accept more. I guess what he said is correct, that's why today I make myself free, no schedule is planned, just being RANDOM like what I used to. House is empty, parents went to visit grandpa, sis went to uni, bro went to work, nephew went to kindergarten, I am the queen in the house for this moment, playing musics loud, making some notes for coming tests ...


Sometimes, I am happy that I am one of the favourite students for my lecturers, but sometimes, I don't like them to take me as an example, I don't need a lot of titles for myself as a hardworking or clever student. Sometimes, I just want a confirmation, rather than compliments. People like to frame me as a nerd because of these compliments yet I can't do anything.

Submitted my application form to Melbourne Uni last Thursday, have to wait for another 5 weeks to confirm whether I get conditional offer or not. Don't really want to share this with everyone as I think it gonna be quite embarrassing if I didn't get it.